Self-Medicating Does NOT Work & Here’s How I Found Out!!!

We all where MASK and when we finally decide to take them off our entire world changes and that is when renewing of our mind starts to take place.

Have you ever been where Michelle is? 

Towards the last few months of my mental sickness I gave a f#%@ about my mind, body, or soul. I held on to the fact that I was a good person who had been through a lot, so I deserved a drink at the end of the day. Listen to that selfishness “I deserve to hurt myself because other people hurt me”

I had about 2 years after I turned 20 that I heavily drank. Living my young life in the steady drunk/hangover curse of alcohol. I quit drinking for a very long time. Only socially drinking very rarely. I even came to the epiphany that I hate the taste and the uncontrollable feeling.

Then life just kept happening. Over quarantine I began sinking more and more deeper into my depression. Not realizing I was creating more problems for myself by trying to forget them.

In this picture I hate to say that all these bottles were gone in less than 2 weeks. I went from hating it to craving the feeling it gave me. Every single day I would drink and not just drink – I’d take shot after shot after shot. On a regular day I would start with 3 shots immediately and then come back for more in about 20-30 mins. If I was drinking with friends, I found myself sneaking into the kitchen for “secret shots” because I just wasn’t hammered enough. I was spiraling out of control. No one even noticed - because well - I’m Michelle and I’m always happy right 🤷🏻‍♀️

I drank heavily up until the DAY I took myself to therapy for the first time.

During my first week of meds I decided I did not need to drink because it could mess with what my medication is trying to do. I was a little aggravated, drank a lot more coffee than normal and maybe smacked a bit to much but I did good.

After about the 2nd week of meds I woke up one day and literally a light switch turned on. I had so many realizations for why I do what I do. That no one is ever going to apologize enough for me to feel better. No one can help my mind but me. Not my family, friends, or drunken days.

So here it is - meet an ugly demon that reared it’s head. (This is not even everything, just the “pretty” bottles)

I know that living with trauma has shaped me forever, I can’t change that. I CAN change the way I react to it.

I lay you to rest demon. We are no longer in a relationship. We’re THROUGH.

I love me to much ❤️


Romans 12:2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

Self-Medicating Does NOT Work But God’s Prescription For Renewing of Your Mind Will!

Now if you find medical issues are causing some of your pains like Michelle did then by all means get medical attention immediately.

But in most individual’s lives, it is not medical it is mental - it is Fear, Doubt, Stress, and Uncertainty that causes most our problems in life.

Renewing of the mind, making a Mindset Shift is the only solution and the best way to do that is by letting God lead in our thoughts.

So, how can we start doing that?

Go To Step #2 > “Turn Into Your Mind”

This series has been the basic summary of the MINDSET SHIFT Mini-Couse that is a FREE Resource at and can be downloaded instantly.

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